My sweet daughter amazes me! At times it breaks my heart to think of how amazing she is. I know that sounds crazy but... I know my HC has a job JB will never have. HC must let me learn with her. I will learn when I am in la-la land with my thoughts towards her abilities and I will learn when I am right on track.
Recently I began noticing our reading time was becoming work again. We were doing well and then I started having to prod HC along more and more everyday. My frustrations were growing by the minute because I knew something was awry but I didn't know what to do about it.
My first instinct was to reach out to anybody and everybody with kids her age. Whether they were in school or homeschooled. I received a lot of vague answers that really frustrated me all the more. I didn't want to compare HC to those children specifically - I just wanted someone to say - 'try this'.
That didn't happen. Oh well, I picked up my big girl self and kept seeking an answer. It was then that I realized I failed to go to the maker of HC with this new issue. How I manage to forget this every.stinkin'.time. is beyond me. Who else has the key to HC and me? I guess I am a slow learner in asking THE Maker of my precious HC first. I pray I learn this lesson, and do so sooner than later next time.
So, prayer + Mom's night out with friends and a new friend (who happened to be a K-5 teacher in the public school before choosing to homeschool) = a little perspective = me choosing to make a few changes. Then my homeschooling friend MD mentioned having a bad day and that reminded me of something I read in a book over the last year. The book was "The Three R's" by Ruth Beechick. I wanted to read over that topic again and realized I never finished reading the book. Guess what was in the book - it was a little guide to help you decide if the little readers you choose are at your child's reading level or not.
I am not amazed that I had the answer to the cry of my Mommy heart all the time. Doesn't the Bible say "He knows what you have need of before you need it"? I had my own answer in my own hands all along. God is so good! He is really SO SO GOOD!
My daughter is so amazing to me - she just goes along, doing her best to accomplish what I ask her to do. She struggles with the tough stuff (even when it is beyond her abilities and beyond any 5 year old's abilities) and manages to complete the task at hand. I am so humbled by that. I am also so thankful that we, HC and I, are making huge progress over this homeschool experience. God has allowed me to goof big and to SEE IT CLEARLY AS A GOOF and I pray I remember these lessons daily. I want to teach my daughter not drag her through learning. My heart is full and broken all at once but the fullness overshadows the brokenness - Thank the Lord alone for that! I just had to share how good my sweet Abba is to me and my HC. He is ever near and always quick to lend a hand when I take the time to ask HIM! Oh that I would do that first next time!?
Saturday, January 17, 2009
Prayer 101 - Go to the Lord First
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I've maybe shared before that Lindsey struggled with learning to read. I would get very frustrated and wondered if she would ever get it. Jenna, on the other hand was reading books cover to cover at age 4.
Now that my girls are grown I have learned that children really do grow and develope at different rates. Lindsey graduated from college with honors. She still does not enjoy reading, but she has suceeded. Jenna, my gifted child, has found that learning is a waste if you have to work at it. She is able to pull all A's, but not willing.
Yes, our Father is the only source for teaching our children. My prayers for my children never end. The neat part is that He teaches us along the way and we continue to grow along with our kids.
You are a great mom Melodye. Keep up the good work. Thanking the Lord right now for you and your precious babes.
Awesome!! And a great reminder! I, too, often forget that the answer is right in front of me when I include the Lord!
yes, thanks for the reminder!! i needed it..just when you reminded me!
I love your honesty in this post. God is so good and He has exactly what we need at the exact moment. He has certainly gone above and beyond to show His great faithfulness and love to our family over the last couple of weeks. Keep up the good work!
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